Bye August, Hey September.

August oh august, what a whirlwind it has been. You have been so hard on us. I will never forget the face of my uncle looking at my aunt for the very last time before they close the coffin. I will never forget the teary faces of my little cousins from that moment. Her trembling hands when she dress up her mum for the last time, having her quiet moments away from the crowd, the moment when the coffin was incinerated before our eyes. Each and every moment impacted me so much. So many questions why. Too many questions why.

Then, just two weeks after, I was mourning again. Hubby's grandma passed. Although, it wasn't as painful to see, as grandma lived a really fruitful life till 92. There was a glimpse of tearful moment when part of the ritual, Alex's uncle had to walk with kneels over to pay his last respect as soon as he got off the plane and reached grandma's resting place. The grief of a son for his mother... but in many ways, we try to celebrate a wonderful and strong lady she has been. Being able to live pass 90, to many is considered a great blessing.

Even when it all has passed, I'm still very much thinking of my aunt, & constantly, wondering how my cousins are doing. ALS/MND is just too cruel. It just is.

Just like that, time just flew by again. Wish there was a rewind button to go back where it all didn't happen, but there isn't. I'm trying my best to be strong and trying my best to be their big sister they can turn to and helping them whenever I can. I just celebrate my birthday but this year my wish is for time to be able to heal wounds & for everyone I love to have good health. Hoping September will be a better month.

Celebrating the Men in our lives

June, a month to celebrate the men in our lives. It's amazing how time just swoosh by when you are not paying attention. It's that time of the year again. I'm thankful that DH is always around to support me and give me encouragement in times when I need him the most. Also, I'm grateful that he tries his best to be there for Lucas. Even though, there are the occasional, "mishaps" and "leak-poo" moments during his watch.

I'm also grateful for another man in my life, which is my dad. Being his stern & serious self, we seldom express our love for him as often. But I'm really grateful to have him around. He will always be the daddy that made sure everything is planned out for us in life. Giving us the best he could.

Our anniversary is just around the corner and I thought of making DH a card to go with his gift. Using Webster's Pages - Composition & Color by Allison Kreft, Stickers from Ki, Studio Calico & also Amy Tangerine.

Thanks for looking.